Like A Piece Of Cake!

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I'm no hypocrite.

I know how it is to feel lonesome and cry for depression has been my mistress for the longest time.
It was then until this year when happiness once again knocked at my door. I'd have to admit, loneliness would
still pay me a visit once in a while. Today I witnessed tears falling from my eyes once again.. and the weird thing is, I don't exactly know what the hell I'm feeling! Joy and lament intertwined.. Joy probably because I found myself in a situation I never imagined I would be into. Lament I guess because I feel I'm being judged and treated unfairly. I cried all the way to work today. I even had to phone a friend for some help. Hey! It's part of living... that's the beauty of life.. and I'm entitled to feel everything so I have to acknowledge it and go through it like everybody does. I know I can't please everyone.. I don't really give a shit but of course, like you, I have feelings too and believe it or not, I'm highly sensitive.

In some occasions, like what I'm going through these days.... confusion came along with loneliness so I need a little push and more energy in order to help me cope with it. I really dunno which came-in first.. who invited who? Oh what the hell!? Must be the hormones again kickin' in! Ohhh I just love being a woman! ahahaha Women are magical beings indeed that's why we drive men crazy! BWAHAHAHA (evil laugh)

As I've said, in these occasions wherein there's an inner battle to be fought, what I do is seek refuge in a place where I can find peace and tranquility... and that place would be in any cafe with cakes to die for! hahahahah No kidding, I'm dead serious!

To help me win these brain smashing mind games, what I do is help my genius nuts by feeding it with lots and lots of sugar!!! Yeah that's right..... sugar! sugar! sugar! Cake! Cake! Cake!

I'm so fascinated with cakes... they're more like edible artworks for me. A feast not only for the eyes but also for the soul. They remind me how simple life should be... as the old saying goes, "Life is a piece of cake!"  Perhaps the reason why I choose to eat cake when I'm sad is because it reminds me that life is indeed a piece of cake. It somehow fills the emptiness inside me, reassuring me that I'm not alone.

I'd ponder with the matter as I savor each bite and believe it or not, I do feel better after having a slice and a cup of calming tea. I hunger for solitude at times so I can weigh things better... think more rational. I guess we all need this once in a while.We have to make sure that our sanity is intact!

This is what a cake is for me..

Beautiful- a feast for the eyes
Delicate- for you have to handle it with care, Irresistible and inviting - for it arouses curiosity.. makes you crave for more! Who could ever resist such a treat?
Mysterious -  for the fact that you can't figure out why you wanna taste it despite not knowing what's in it! Unpredictable - for the sudden burst of mixed  flavors and textures tickling all sensations.. full of surprises!
Filling- for the satisfaction you get in every serving.
Energizing - for the renewed strength it provides



....hey, come to think of it, these words also best describe ME! I guess I'm a cake after all! No wonder!


 In times when you feel like the whole world has turned against you or when the people who matter to you chose another path leaving you right in the middle of nowhere, the best thing to do I believe is to just broaden your understanding and humbly forgive. RESPECT is the key I think.. for we have to somehow understand and respect why they did it in the first place. They have their reasons for sure and we don't even need to know exactly what they are.. we just have to respect it and be happy with it! It doesn't mean that you surrendered or gave up on them.. it's just that  you also have to go your own way.... your own path to happiness with or without them. Don't wait! Just go with the flow. Keep on moving. Because no matter which road you take, if it's really meant to happen, then surely your paths would cross again. I know it's hard to digest but it's as simple as that. In time, it would all fall into its proper places. If it's destined, then a way shall be made!

I know that for as long as I'm alive, I will keep on facing more and more challenges and battles. But at least I know that with each battle won, I'd have an upgraded armor to help me conquer the ones ahead.


 Have FAITH my friend... sprinkle your life with a little FAITH....for trials are there to set us FREE! Allow nature to take its natural course. As I said earlier, if it's destined to be... then a way shall be made. It'll be shown to you and all you have to do is prepare for that day! Prepare yourself for the blessings that are to come!

So since this entry revolved around cakes, might as well give it a sweet ending.....

Weird as it may seem.. my advice is to see yourself as a slice of cake... go on!
Be admired. Allow others to have a piece of you. Let them know your worth. Share
what you got. Fill them with much joy and satisfaction and let them crave for MORE!!!!

I feel much much better now...... =)

Thank you for allowing me to share myself to you once again! I hope you liked this entry
as much as I did and hope to hear a comment from you!

MWUUAAAHHHHH!!! chup! chup!

Sweet as always,
Mae

THE BIG Three-O

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I can't believe I just turned 30! Never thought I'd survive this long.. but yes I did! Thanks to the support of my friends and family. No kidding!

Looking back, I may say that I didn't live a normal life. With all the experiences, the laughter, achievements, gigs, travels, the heartaches, tears, glorious moments and even defeat..... all these events have molded me into who I am today. For this, I am grateful. Now I truly know that everything has its purpose. I may have entered the big 3 but honestly... I have so much life force in me that I feel much much younger now than I was in high school. I love being 30.. I love every bit of it for I am wiser now and have more control over my life.

This year's birthday celebration was indeed a very memorable one. Let me show you the happenings...

We had a pre-celebration fun photo shoot last May 8 at the Quezon City circle. I invited 3 of my coolest friends namely Badeth, Frank and Michelle to join me on that day and it turned out to be awesome as expected!



After that fun photo shoot, we went to one of my favorite spots.. The Avenetto Pizzeria at Visayas Avenue.

I wanted to treat them to a really nice warm and filling dinner.....

From the looks of it... this is what I call "EAT TIL YOU DROP!"
We've successfully won the battle! Humans vs Pasta! ahahaha







 Fast forward to the big day itself... hmmm how should I describe it? hmmmm PERFECT!!

I've chosen the color yellow as my scheme to show how happy I was that day... to happily embrace and celebrate this crazy beautiful life I'm living in!

Bought bright yellow balloons and walked across Ortigas center holding 30 balloons in my hand! What an unusual experience! I enjoyed each moment! ahahah I do crazy stuff regularly but what the heck!

 Oh before I forget, talking about insanity.. that morning as I was waiting for the bus, I just had this insane idea to have my name painted on a bus sign... only a person like me could have the guts to do such a thing I guess. Even my artist friends were stunned!

 Spent my free time taking pics as usual!!! I really love my job and the people I work with!! I feel so blessed to have them in my life!!! Our office is more like an asylum filled with nut heads especially the managers..ahem ahem!

For the finale of course, I ordered the 2 biggest pizzas I could think of as symbol to my really really fun filled colorful boundless world!!

*sigh*   I love my life.. and I'm happier because I get to share it to the world.

hmmmm my friends have been asking me about my birthday wishes for this year...
hmmm  ok let me share them to you..


WISHES
1. To gain more genuine friends- that's what we all need
2. To make more people happy- they say I have this gift in touching people's lives. I believe I really do! I feel flattered whenever kids call me "idol" and whenever people say how I was able to influence them.  I feel deeply honored. I feel I have this big responsibility 'coz many people look up to me. Wow! I'm a real model!!!
3. To find someone who's gonna be as faithful as I am- I share my passions to many people but still, having a special someone makes life much much sweeter. What I need is some sugar in my bowl. I believe I deserve a partner to share my dreams with. Someone to grow old with. Though my mom has been telling me that I'm never gonna find the one..... hmmm nah! I don't think so. 8 yrs ago I thought I did, but I was wrong *sigh* Anyway, I guess I'd have to write a separate blog entry about my dramas about love and stuff.
4. To have my own kitchen once again- I miss cooking and entertaining friends during weekends. I just love making people feel at home and loved. One way of showing them how special they are to me is by spending time and effort in the kitchen. ahahaha no kidding! I miss experimenting with food. I've made a promise to myself that once I finally get my own place, the most beautiful part should be the kitchen for that is where I'm usually gonna hang-out!

PLANS
1. To study more about Photography- it really turned my world up side down! Thanks to my friend Frank, I'm officially addicted to it! I just love it!! I plan to seriously study so I can take better photos. The world better prepare!!! I'm already cooking-up insanely genius concepts in my head! Before doing these schemes I have in mind, all I have to do now is to befriend my camera and get to really really know about light etc.
2. To review more and more restaurants - believe it or not, since I started this blog, I've become the like the "Ernie Baron" of food trips.
3. To go on vacation abroad - I bet it would be really fun to go on a food trip abroad! I'm thinking of visiting either, Singapore or Hong Kong Disney!   A 3day 2 night stay would be fine!!!
 4. To release another single this year - I strongly feel that I'll be hitting the studio again very soon. My focus has been completely diverted to photos since I got my cam and my bandmates seem to be very busy with personal stuff so I'm really just enjoying time alone. After 10yrs of being in the band scene, I think I deserve a vacation. Anyway, I do have my own plans.. whatever happens, nobody can ever stop me from singing and writing tunes. I have a few melodies running around my head lately.. ahihihi
5. To get to know myself more - seriously, many people dunno themselves enough so they end up being unhappy. Since I made an effort to really know more about me,I found peace of mind and appreciated the things I'm capable of doing. All these years, I've been limiting myself due to my irrational insecurities and fears... good thing I was able to break-away from it all!

to sum it all up... I just wanna keep on having fun!!!!!! 

I wonder what next year's bday blog entry would be! hmmmmm Let's wait and see!!!! Ciao!

A Very Yellow Friday.......

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A Place Conducive For Romance....

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You've made a wise decision my friend!! Thank you for visiting my blog! You're doing yourself a really big favor!!! Lay down your woes for a while for it's time for us to fall in-love once again.....

Giggles, starry eyes, blushes, pounding hearts and more giggles... these are what my buddy Badeth and I felt all throughout our Bellini's experience! We weren't prepared for it actually.. but it turned out to be a real treat! Never thought 2 single gals like us would totally feel in-love once again.. Not with eachother ofcourse (we're no lesbos! eeww!!) We instantly felt the love vibe immediately after entering the place. The interiors, furniture, wines, aromas that filled the whole area, the music that'll surely put you in the mood! The feeling was soo magical!! To be in-love is really a wonderful feeling!

AAAhhhhh nothing beats the feeling of falling in-love!! The sweet smiles, the glances, butterflies in your guts, the sleepless nights, the thrill of the 1st kiss, how time flies when you talk, the feeling like your soul just wants to come out of your body and unite with that someone, you don't even need to say words for actions says it all..the feeling as his hands would touch yours... I could go on and on....an indescribable feeling! I just love everything about it!! How magical it is indeed when 2 people start feeling adoration for each other...
I believe it's a gift that should be enjoyed, embraced and cherished! Yiheeee!!! Rape! Rape!! hahahah

While waiting for that lucky guy, I keep myself busy these days by just being myself, taking lots of pictures and having fun! Last weekend, I invited my buddy Badeth (Frank's niece) to Cubao Expo for some drinks at Mogwai's. Upon arrival, we noticed that all seats in all bars were taken, leaving us with no other choice...ok ok for the record, I've been really wanting to visit Bellini's for years now, but my timing was always not a good one. This time, it was just perfect! We immediately went in and boy were we mesmerized by the romantic ambiance!We were like transported to Venice with our amores serenading us! hahahahah

It was just love at first sight! I immediately picked a really fancy table near the antipastos ( so I can easily take snapshots!) The waiters were so accommodating! After ordering, I quickly took Maggie (my camera) out of the bag and started taking photos like there was no tomorrow! It made me miss my photography buddy Angkel (uncle) Frank. I'm sure he'd also love this place as well. The interiors were awesome with a mixture of wines, glasses, paparazzi photos and artworks surrounding the area, the lighting so perfect, the aromas very enticing, the music kept you in the mood. In short.. the perfect place conducive for romance.. Love was definitely in the air!

The food was as magnificent as the whole place! I'm at awe! I'm just sooo excited to show you our pics so here they are....

 As you can see, Badeth and I couldn't get over that feeling of excitement.. like tourists visiting an exotic place for the first time! hahaha

Now let's get down to business ... the most fun part! Let's check out the food!
Too bad we already had a heavy meal before this visit. As I said earlier, this trip was unexpected. But what the heck!? There will always be room for some good food! Who cares about dieting anyway? hahahaha

"10 Quattro Formaggio (4 Cheese Pizza) 250php-
Recommended for all you cheese addicts like me!
I'm a big fan of thin crust pizzas so no wonder I'm gonna

give it 2 Thumbs Up! Take it up a notch by drizzling some Chili Oil on it!!
It gave it a really nice kick!! Thinking about it makes me wanna drool! Waaaahhhhh

Antipastos 350php - These appetizers look really
tempting! Perfect with some Foccacia (Italian bread with herbs). You get to have a bit of everything at this price though I think it's costly. It's worth a try! Treat yourself once in a while!

Sweet Wine (80php per glass) - Wahhh what can I say? just looking at it makes me wanna rape someone! hahaha!
I've always been fascinated with wines! I guess the reason why I love the French and Italians so much is because they remind me on how abundant and beautiful life is…The serving was pretty big! Feel the "heat" after a few sips! Worth every peso! Definitely a must try!!

Look closely as Bedeth enjoys her sweet wine experience...... She was never the same afterwards... bitten by the Love Bug perhaps! Naks!

Just before dessert, I tried to recall some Italian phrases I learned way back in college.. surprisingly, the waiter was actually very fluent in Italian! We were really dazzled! Badeth instantly blushed! hehehe
His name is Randy by the way!
We were also fortunate to meet the man behind everything! The owner himself.. Senior Roberto Bellini! He asked me about Italian Operas etc! I surely had a mental block that time! Good thing he could speak English well! Before becoming a restaurateur, he was a Paparazzi... wow! Amazing! A real paparazzi right in front of me!! Some of his photos are displayed on the wall!!! Cool!!!!

Orange Cake (130php) - Warm, filling, sweet and tangy.. I love every bite of it! And because I can't find the words to fully describe it, I believe it's better to show you my facial expressions while enjoying this heavenly treat.....

Before....

.... After! Nuff said!

The perfect spot to express vows of love!!!! Tip to all guys..... No girl could ever say no to any proposal if you take her to this place!!! Simply perfect!!!! I myself would like to experience this one day! Why not?

Allow me to be a little cheesy for a while.....

Here's a picture of me while dreaming of meeting Mr. Right!

I'm certain that it would be such a memorable day!

This moment is definitely worth the wait!

To all interested guys out there.. send me your resumes ASAP!!

ahahahaha I guarantee that the experience would be mind blowing!!! hahahaha

A sweet experience deserves a sweet ending! La Dolce Vita! Life is truly sweet!!!! May we all live life to the fullest and strive to always seek happiness in every endeavor! Perhaps one of the main reasons on why I never tire of looking for nice places and doing what I enjoy is because it's part of my journey to bliss... and I want to share it to the whole world for I want YOU to be happy as well! Living on Earth is Heaven enough for me!

I hope you enjoyed this week's entry like I did! Ciao!!!

Visit them at the Cubao Expo

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Bellini's Italian Restaurant

913-25-50

When Things Don't Go Your Way... SO WHAT?

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Dear friend,

I know you are hurting now but please, don't be too hard on yourself...The worst thing you can do is to allow other people to hurt your feelings! They have NO right to hurt you! YOU are precious! You don't deserve to be hurt. Save yourself from pain! Protect yourself from misery. Remember... we have no control over other people.. We only have control over ourselves. Keep calm and carry on my friend. You have your life to enjoy!

You did your best I know (for I did too! believe me!).. but despite that, for some weird illogical reason they chose to respond against the natural flow..things didn't go smoothly as expected. As I said earlier.. we have no control over others. It's their choice and we need to respect that. They too have their lives to live... and guess what... You too have yours! No need to confuse yourself asking why why why.... for even they dunno the answer most of the time. Let it be. Need not delve in it. It's a waste of time.

You are a rational being! Be logical! You may be down now but realize this.. there is no other way but up!!! So get up! Wipe your tears dry and embrace all the good that life has to offer! Perhaps you've forgotten life's magnificence for you've allowed yourself to drown in desperation. You're much much bigger than what you think! Why do you underestimate yourself too much? Are you in need of appreciation and approval from others? Guess what? Unless you learn to acknowledge YOUR own gifts, appreciate YOUR own achievements no matter how simple they are...YOU will never be truly happy!

SO WHAT? If your lover leaves you? So what? Surely you'll find a more deserving and faithful partner! Office politics? SO WHAT? As long as you do your best, there is no cause for a fuss. Sick with the people in your household? SO WHAT? Let them doom themselves in the ocean of negativity! Having trouble in dealing with difficult people? SO WHAT? Just smile and let them resolve their own issues. It's not your job to change the world. Stop complaining! All the waters in the world could never sink a ship unless it enters the inside. Don't let troubles sink you..Don't allow them to affect you. Stay afloat where the sun eternally shines. Let goodness shine and smile upon you! Stay on top of every situation! You are not being selfish my dear, you're just doing yourself a favor! Start prioritizing yourself from now on!!

Your job is YOU!! If you wanna change the world... start from the inside my dear. Time to start a revolution of the mind. A simple shift of emotion goes a long long way. Quit whining, hiding and complaining...Worst of all, stop escaping..stop living a lie! I've done it a million times and the headaches aren't pleasant! Face your demons once and for all! Set yourself FREE!! Everything around us is just pure energy... unseen vibrations that are so powerful too complicated to fully fathom. Just believe..believe in the unseen! Your duty is to send good vibes to the universe so the universe can also respond to you by sending back abundance! Go with the flow.. let the universe give you what you deserve! Allow yourself to enjoy your rightful inheritance... Love, joy, the best of health, wealth, perfection and the list goes on and on.

Life my friend is a gift.. a gift too precious to take for granted. If the universe sends you love, then embrace it, cherish it with all your heart and soul! The more you welcome it, the more it'll be given to you! If you let it slip away.... sorry to say but you've deprived yourself of such a blessing.. you should be stamped on the forehead with a sign that says LOSER! You're lucky I'm not in front of you! Yes! That's what I call people who are too selfish on themselves that they deprive themselves to love and be loved! LOSERS!!! Are you a loser? Shame on You! Major “KABOBOHAN” (stupidity)!!! hahahah If not, PROVE IT! Not to me but to YOURSELF! Wisen up my friend!

A simple shift my dear.. a simple choice. That's all you have to do. BE HAPPY! Lay down your woes and walk with me. Join me in this blissful journey!!!